It’s been quite a while since I’ve shared anything on here.
Partly for negative reasons:
I’ve had two cats go through major illnesses and die this year. Stress always has a strong impact on my own health so I’ve had to slow down a lot to take care of myself while looking after them. It’s been heartbreaking since I love my cats very much!
Also, I’ve been dealing with someone I’d begun collaborating with on two major projects turning on me. This is someone I’d worked with several times before, who I’d considered a friend and whose work I greatly admired. This change in him came as a shock.
If you follow me on Twitter, you may have seen some tweets alluding to some new video content I was working on. This is the reason the content hasn’t been released yet.
Shortly after that shoot, I started getting creepy, threatening messages. About the shoot we’d just done. From the photographer.
Anyone who has met me in real life knows that all the erotic work I do in modeling and writing is backed up by a pretty healthy attitude toward sexuality in general. Meaning, I don’t find the human body or sexual desire (my own or that of other people) shameful. So, someone sending me messages trying to make me feel shame for shooting something I chose to do is very much failing to understand what makes me tick.
I would never have thought that someone I already had such a positive history with would change this much. We’ve all had bad clients, or shot with people we just don’t match up with well, but I have never had anyone hide their true colors so effectively for so long.
Obviously, I am not pleased with any of this, but there are good things going on too!
I have been working with a few new people and all those projects have been rewarding and helped fuel my creative energy.
I’m feeling well enough to start traveling again, so I am planning more work trips for the summer and fall.
And of course I have more writing planned for this blog. I’d like to start sharing more of my modeling work (although if you’re here for the dildo reviews, don’t worry, I’m not abandoning them entirely!) since I’m now focusing on projects I care about and that excite me creatively.
So, thanks for reading! My goals with writing have always been to entertain and educate so I will be back to my usual content soon!